August 19, 2006
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Done Deal
I am in the throes of insomnia, at five aye-em.
After what seems like an eternity, the house does finally appear to be sold. At least… at midnight, the buyers’ “Nah, we’re scared and don’t want to do this, after all” option period quietly expired.
Which means closing will take place on the 8th of September, and final departure from here will take place on the 19th.
One month.
It’s not the imminence of moving, or the task ahead, that stirred me from dreamland. I have done it so many times, before… and I know what needs to be done.
What got me up (besides an ethereal “visitor” who visits me, regularly) was the imminence of change. Or rather, the idea that that this “thing” I’ve been planning since sometime before Bog invented dirt is suddenly a “reality” and not a “theory” or a “plan for the future.”
The “rest of my life” IS about to begin.
With all its attendant implications and complications.
Someone once said of revolutionaries that they often fail because they are really good at “overthrowing governments” but haven’t the faintest clue about “running a country.”
I think I have my “clues” pretty well lined up.
But I am still awake, at 5:00 in the morning, contemplating this idea that I am “one step closer.” Because that’s what it feels like. One step closer to simplicity. One step closer to a life of my own choosing.
One step closer to that beach. A particular beach.
It’s exciting and unnerving, at the same time.
At least one of you knows what I mean….
Comments (26)
I know what you mean. I love that mixture of apprehension and anticipation! The energy of the sun rising over a new horizon. I’m excited for you
What a nice birfday present for you, to finally get out of dodge with visions of the beach in your head. I left Iowa for California 21 years ago in September. It’s a great time of year, the best time, imho, on the West Coast. Im so excited for you Peter. Congratulations. Woohoo.
Congratulations on the sale of your house. I’ve been reading long enough to know it has been a long time in coming. You are fortunate to be in a place in your life where you can forge ahead with the new life you’ve chosen for yourself. Many of the rest of us can only continue to dream about that opportunity. I like the quote you cited about revolutionaries. That seems to be not only true about revolutionaries, but administrations as well.
Best of luck on your big move.
xoxoxo
exciting! and scary! I understand why you’re not sleeping – big change effects me that way also… it must feel wonderful to be this much closer to your dream… Namaste’, Enna
You remind me of the dog chasing the car and finally catching up with it, “What in the heck do I do now?”
Congratulations on finally getting what you’ve aimed for put into motion. I’ve no idea what your coming plans are, but may they gift you with rich possibilities as they unfold.
September is an excellent month for new beginnings! Savor each moment of the journey.
For now there is the fear of facing what you’ve always dreamed of.
My insides are excited for you….heck…my outsides are too. Hugs & love!!!
Yep… that one step shall massively change the lifescape.
And I’m excited for you! If it wasn’t exciting and unnerving then it shouldn’t happen, methinks. It’s going to be very cool to see you unfold over the next few months.
Yay!!
Congrats!
Change is good — especially a change that simplifies life. But any leap into the unknown is unsettling, as well. I’m happy for you – but my, what a lot of work you have ahead of you to accomplish it all.
This is the most positive that I have “read” you! Now you won’t be moving in the heat of summer, you will be where you want to be and life will look good to you again. Enjoy the time of transition. You are almost “there”.
This, this, this and then THAT!!!!!!! How happy I am for you, my friend – have you already located your special beach? Don’t you wish, in your heart of hearts, that you could leapfrog over the next month, have all the “stuff” done that has to be done, and be ready to flop down on your deck by the shore and say “There. I’ve arrived. This is it. Here I am. Finally.”
At least you’ve gotten this far with your dream. You’ll be amazed at how fast the next month goes. Honestly, you will.
Very good news. Now you can turn off all those lights!
i had to come back and be excited for you all over again…
You have a future full of endless possibilities. How exciting
That is GREAT news!!! I hope you got your asking price, or better. The future opens out magnificently… xo
Congrats on the sale of your house! Blessings of happiness and prosperity to you!
~Namaste~
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CrimsonWings (A Goddess in the making!)…A continuous work in progress!
YES!!! It is the beginning of the new phase in your life…..Very scary indeed!! *G* You’re going to do wonderful….ahhh….a beach….’Til The Next
yep. may I wink at you? it’s so GOOOOD when you find out you weren’t crazy. that it really did / does, exist.
the mitote still yaps on, of course, but mainly on the news and not so much in your mind, your life.
rock on.
I’m so happy that your plans are reaching fruition. I hope your beach you’ve chosen is the perfect one. Keep us informed.
It’s after one a.m. and here I am commenting to you. Insomnia doesn’t know or respect limits. Enjoy your beach and your new life – one of your own choosing. So glad the house has finally sold. It will be a busy month and we’ll want to hear about the new location and new life.
Waaa Hooo! *throws confetti and a beach towel*
All right! you are about to start a new adventure. I’m sad a little though. Since moving here and finding that the norm of the people that live here are just a bit shallow and not really into much deep thought I always said that there is thought provoking people that live down here, because of you. Now you will be leaving.
Alas, it is a good thing for you…..I know you are ready to climb to a new place on your mountain of life. I wish you the best. 
It’s the excitement part that unfailingly tells you that you’re on the right track… congratulations on another step forward in your chosen direction!
I have been writing a story of my goals and got nervous today that they might come true. I have to sell my house in the near future and just can’t even tackle that one for a while, Judi
wonderful wonderful!
Congrats, Peter. I hope you and your cats will enjoy your “new” life.