March 5, 2007

• Day-um…

  I’m out of practice. I’ve been writing “seriously” so much (recently) that I feel a bit lost, when it comes to working on this blah-g. People complain about “writer’s block,” but this is nuts. It’s almost as if I have forgotten how to write in a friendly/chatty style.

  I am reminded of something, though.

  At some point– back in the stone age, when these pages were an endless lament of misery relating to my wanting to move– I shared a bit from a Locational Astrology reading I’d had done. Whereas pretty much everything about my location in the Southland sucked rocks, for me… the one truly bright light about that location was it’s ideal nature for matters of spiritual growth and developing the self. The point about where I am now, is that the rest of my life would all become much easier for me, much more naturally.

  I hadn’t thought about that, till just now– after being in this town since early October– but I have been far too busy “enjoying life” here, to be in that deeply spiritual and self-contemplative place where I mostly dwelled, during many of my 25-odd years in Texas. Apart from the fact that I’d rather be outside, doing something else… it really amazes that the “Power of Place” could really have such a significant impact.

  Then again, maybe we have all experienced “versions” of this. We go different places– often quite “similar,” because our tastes tend to be consistent– and feel an affinity for some, and never want to go back to others. Not because of our “experiences” there were necessarily bad, but because even if each place is generally regarded as a “wonderful destination,” we resonate with one, and not with the other. That is the Power of Place.

  I believe it’s more important than most people care to admit– perhaps staying in obscurity because it’s not “scientifically measurable,” and the outcome is “subjective,” and depends on individual opinions… which are also subjective.

  Which brings me back to my initial dilemma of struggling with “writing from spirit.” And writing “truthfully.” Maybe part of the issue has to do with accepting a new paradigm. I can’t just compare where my mind is now with where it was before, and claim there to be some kind of “shortfall.” Because “now” is NOW, and not THEN. A bit like those people who don’t realize that they are stuck in relationships “out of habit,” rather than because they actually want to be there.

  Not sure if that metaphor made sense, but it “felt” right. We tend to simply fall into habits, and follow them in a state of emotional/spiritual sleep. And we get so stuck there, that a “deviation,” even it it happens to be the absolutely best and most perfect thing we can do for ourselves… ends up feeling “wrong,” simply because it’s “different” from the routine.

  And that– in a nutshell– is perhaps why it is easy to talk about change, but so hard to effectuate it.

  • 11:16 pm
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